Thursday, May 29, 2014
Musings from Murk: Self Will 1
How have I acted on self will? In nearly every way conceivable in every area of my life. I've always, since about 11 years old, gotten or tried to get my way no matter what the cost to me or anyone else.
What were my motives? selfishness, false pride, fear
How has acting on self will affected my life? It has caused me to miss all the blessings in my life that God and a conscious contact with Him could have brought. It has also caused me to lose my family, wife, child, grandchildren, friends, and the joy of living and growing spiritually with them in my life. It has only brought me pain and suffering where I could have had joy.
How has my self will affected others? It has driven away all the good people in my life or changed negatively the ones not driven away.