Saturday, May 31, 2014
Musings from Murk: Self Will 2
Describe the times when my will hasn't been enough. When I come face to face with my reservations, and I'm alone each time this has happened. I've been made aware of the only way I didn't act out as I would have in the past was by God's grace and His presence in my life through surrender.
What is the difference between my will and God's will? Night and day. My will is darkness. His will is light.
Have there been times in my recovery when I've found myself subtly taking back my will and my life? Yes.
What alerted my? A gut feeling. Fear, pain, confusion.
What have I done to recommit myself to the third step? Every day ask for His will and the power to carry that out. Keep myself aware that I can't do God's will, but must stay in an attitude of surrender in order to receive the power from Him I need to make the decision on the level I need.